As far as I am concerned.. I am really glad that no one read this blog anymore.. even if you are reading it.. I dun wish to know.. no particular reason..
I wonder if my recent restless has anything to with PMS.. maybe.. or is it my work? have been feeling very restless recently.. work too stressed? work too slacked? work not challenging enough? work is too challenging? I really dunno.. I wont say the feeling is consistent all the time.. sometimes I feel pressurised when the enrollment is not increasing up to the director's expectations.. as though I am not performing well.. but there is really so much I can do.. of course I did my best to push enrollment.. but u cant possibly expect me to PULL A PISTOL and demand parents to sign up right..
Other than that.. work has been OKIE so far.. paper work is like never ending.. hm.. missed teaching rather badly.. I rem my teaching days at Eton.. I was almost happy every single interesting espidoes to share.. in comparison.. the recent change in my job scope has definitely made my life seem rather dull now.. I dun think this feeling can actually be understood by many.. after all.. I still think its hard to comprehend.. because I dun even know what is the appropriate word to describe my own feelings..
In a way.. I have to agree that my work can be tentatively slacked.. at times.. I have the spare time to surf the net for nonsense.. and I can go to school later if I have to run a couple of errands.. this job has given me the freedom that I feel that I tend to lose the self-discipline that I once owned.. the self-discipline to wake up on time.. to reach my workplace on time.. let's put words in this way.. if I reach school later.. I will also knock off later.. n I will made sure that I finish my work b4 I go.. but I still dunno why this feeling of guilt is still present.. and I have to admit it can get to my head some times... in short.. I dun feel good abt this.. maybe I shd start to do something abt it.. instead of brooding over it..
Started my bachelor's course sometime back.. in the midst of it.. will be graduating next yr Feb if nothing goes wrong.. so far so good.. got a assignment due in Sept 7.. but not motivated to do it yet.. intended to take a few days off to do it.. another area that I lack the so-called self-discipline.. haha.. not funny.. this matter is serious boy.. let's get it started!
Still feeling moody after blogging.. because I have not blogged about the main issue.. but suddenly lost the motivation to continue.. maybe in the next blog..
Asked CK for some photos that we have taken for the past few months.. decided to upload it.. after all.. these are all the fond memories.. I only like to rem good things.. I am truely glad that my brain functions in this manner.. it loves to discard memories that hurted and no value in retaining.. what is left are the memories that I want to keep.. maybe that will be what they called 'Selective Memory'.. isnt the brain amazing? I will always rem what Gwendolyn has taught me = "I WANT TO BE ALWAYS HAPPY." Think again.. how many ppl can be happy always? not easy isnt it? BUT at least try!
I wonder if my recent restless has anything to with PMS.. maybe.. or is it my work? have been feeling very restless recently.. work too stressed? work too slacked? work not challenging enough? work is too challenging? I really dunno.. I wont say the feeling is consistent all the time.. sometimes I feel pressurised when the enrollment is not increasing up to the director's expectations.. as though I am not performing well.. but there is really so much I can do.. of course I did my best to push enrollment.. but u cant possibly expect me to PULL A PISTOL and demand parents to sign up right..
Other than that.. work has been OKIE so far.. paper work is like never ending.. hm.. missed teaching rather badly.. I rem my teaching days at Eton.. I was almost happy every single interesting espidoes to share.. in comparison.. the recent change in my job scope has definitely made my life seem rather dull now.. I dun think this feeling can actually be understood by many.. after all.. I still think its hard to comprehend.. because I dun even know what is the appropriate word to describe my own feelings..
In a way.. I have to agree that my work can be tentatively slacked.. at times.. I have the spare time to surf the net for nonsense.. and I can go to school later if I have to run a couple of errands.. this job has given me the freedom that I feel that I tend to lose the self-discipline that I once owned.. the self-discipline to wake up on time.. to reach my workplace on time.. let's put words in this way.. if I reach school later.. I will also knock off later.. n I will made sure that I finish my work b4 I go.. but I still dunno why this feeling of guilt is still present.. and I have to admit it can get to my head some times... in short.. I dun feel good abt this.. maybe I shd start to do something abt it.. instead of brooding over it..
Started my bachelor's course sometime back.. in the midst of it.. will be graduating next yr Feb if nothing goes wrong.. so far so good.. got a assignment due in Sept 7.. but not motivated to do it yet.. intended to take a few days off to do it.. another area that I lack the so-called self-discipline.. haha.. not funny.. this matter is serious boy.. let's get it started!
Still feeling moody after blogging.. because I have not blogged about the main issue.. but suddenly lost the motivation to continue.. maybe in the next blog..
Asked CK for some photos that we have taken for the past few months.. decided to upload it.. after all.. these are all the fond memories.. I only like to rem good things.. I am truely glad that my brain functions in this manner.. it loves to discard memories that hurted and no value in retaining.. what is left are the memories that I want to keep.. maybe that will be what they called 'Selective Memory'.. isnt the brain amazing? I will always rem what Gwendolyn has taught me = "I WANT TO BE ALWAYS HAPPY." Think again.. how many ppl can be happy always? not easy isnt it? BUT at least try!
Took this photo when I was trying the pink top in Joelle's shop
Taken when I have nothing better to do
I want to look like a CHINA DOLL
Victor Junior & I in his bedroom
Mr Shrek - I think he supports charity?
Mei En.. my youngest cousin who will turn 2 in Sept.. and I am in my mid 20s..
That's all for the moment.. Ciao! =)
